cooties.

Sometimes I wish that I was in second grade again. When boys had cooties and jealousy went only as far as wanting the new toy your best friend had. There were no rules to who you could and couldn't talk to and trusting someone was something you didn't second guess. But now that we have all grown up, there are lines that shouldn't be crossed and words between best friends that shouldn't have to be said, we should just know. I never thought that a choosing a guy over someone you said was your best friend was even an option. Because of this choice, I can't be trusted completely, which in one way I can completely understand but another way I resent because frankly, I don't deserve it. I hate jealousy more than any emotion a human could possibly have. It is something I think about all the time, although I wish it never existed. It makes one question whether they are good enough or not and makes people start to question relationships they have invested their whole heart into. I'm not much for sacrificing things that I have worked so hard to maintain. Some things just blow my mind.