reality check.

First of all I was late to church, due to my terrible sense of laziness and turning off my alarm without resetting it. So I didn’t have time to take a shower and had barely enough time to pull myself together and look presentable. Needless to say, my morning was a bit stressful. But after sitting in the pew listening to my pastor preach I began to reflect...

Over the past couple months I have caught myself, more times than I am proud of, wallowing in self-pity. Feeling sorry for myself that life has thrown me the many curveballs it has. Finding myself questioning God and being extremely impatient with his plan for my life. Having a hard time trying to figure out things that didn’t necessarily go my way all the time. Complaining that I had to put forth so much effort to complete tasks that others had no problem doing. Not sharing and ministering to as many people as I could have. Frankly, failing God throughout this year due to the fact that I have been completely selfish. Not recognizing what all God has blessed me with but rather getting caught up in all obstacles that I have had to work through. Taking a step back, I recognize that these are some of the only times I am on my knees, having no where else to turn, and where I am sadly closest to God. The hard times are inevitable. I can either rise above the struggles or stay stagnant, which from previous experiences for me gets me nothing more than swollen eyes and a headache. I’ve realized that no matter how bad I have it, someone always has it worse than me. So after today’s well deserved slap in the face, this is all going to change.