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old post:: 8.4.11

i feel like all i do on this blog anymore is vent but i just have to get it out somehow...i guess i could write in my journal. oh well. there are 16 days before i move back to school...and i can already feel the stress coming on. i just got an e-mail from my chem lab and research teacher telling us about the supplies we need and where to download the syllabus'?, syllabi? whatever. anyway...im not even done with my summer class which by the way i have a nervous system exam for tomorrow and guess who really hasnt looked over it. me. completely my fault once again. on top of this, ive lost my phone, which is in itself terrible. anyone who knows me will tell you that i am the worst person to misplace, lose, and find things. well last night and even today its caught up to me. all those times ive put things in completely random places and found them, well, my luck has ran out. i have searched and hunted but its no where to be found and its probably in the most obvious place. it will turn up eventually but as of right now, its on vaca.
i feel a little weird. i cant really explain it. its kinda like confusion, blessedness,  happiness, sadness, anxiety, and stress all mixed into one. last night was fun but it was kind of an out of body experience. it was nice to be treated like that but i can feel the negativity too. change is happening and i dont know how im supposed to take it. its all a little confusing. i question whether or not im growing up but then theres still that feeling of immaturity and the yearning of ignorance, because hey...its bliss. i miss it.
i know this post makes no sense, but im just trying to sort it all out. please feel free to graze over this one.

smiles all around.

this post is so old. like 7.30.2011 old but i never posted it. strange. looking back when this whole thing happened, it kind of makes me mad. i get frustrated when i think about it, which was in fact today, oddly enough. you want what you cant have. there are certain qualities that some people just have and well theres that.


the unexpected kinda happened and surprisingly it was quite enjoyable. the dark knight turned into a bust so takers was the better option. ive broken my since january streak, thanks goodness. and oh another is added to the list. and a little bit of middle school conversation to top it off....

"you gonna text me?"

"maybe. maybe not. are you gonna text me?"

"no."

"why not?"

"cause."

"cause why?"

"because you better text me."

i would say it was a pretty good night.
smiles all around.

incomplete mission.

mission: to find a shower curtain for our bathrooms. 

well mission impossible, so we bought panties instead. victoria secret, ive moved on. your panties are no longer cute. you've changed for the worse so guess what...aerie is my new found love. 7 for $25. ha, in your face! oh and there was a dare...

attempt one.

attempt three= success. 

after the trip to pizza hut with the frantic waitress, a nap on the way home, and work with cutest prego lady, a fam mexican trip was happeninnnnn.

then a first time experience racking tobacco (insert "racks" chorus) with the best was always a good thing, and i got to talk to the cutest grandpa ever. ahhh, hes lovely. 

nice shirt ashton.

this what just walked into katies room...

 shirt on backwards.

freaking funny.

when a little late turns into like an hour.

dressing like a thug "east carolinian." kid versus kid roundhouse kicks. douchebag remarks. chapel hill visor. losing three matches miserably. conversing about $50,000 souped-up mazdas, drag racing, the 4 to 1 ratio of women to men on the chapel hill campus, and the round-a-bout confession of a cheater. alison hookers shared loved for lunchables with me. watching rango, twice. three to four being the longest hour of my life with pre-k. diaphragm spasms, times four. 2.6 mile run attempting to keep up with two males, impossible. katie waiting on jackson to stop playing with cars at shazzam. crossing off riding in a jeep this summer on bucket list thanks to jackson. seriously, someone buy me a jeep. i will love you forever. joked about the drivers false purity ring on his gear shift. hung out with joe, katie, jackson, and thomas at cookout where fixing a milkshake and fries take forever. ran into (no pun intended) to one of the guys i was running behind today, one of ashton's old "bestfriends," and andrew. witnessing trash talking and the feeling of being uncomfortable. moment of stupidity where i looked over some height difference...i guess ill fix it later.
oh how im gonna miss summer nights and well just summer in general. with nothing to worry about except anatomy cramming on monday nights and work. im ready to go back to greenville though dont get me wrong but school, im not ready for you, at all. so feel free to take a long pause in coming. i wont be mad at cha.
oh added a favorite song to the top ten list...listen, it will change ya life.

putting it off.

before:

as you can tell my room is a wreck.
but thats nothing new.
ive finished cleaning my bathroom.
which to no surprise, was just as bad.
ive been watching friends for the past four hours.
literally.
and in my room so far ive organized my underwear drawer and my shoes.
ive cleaned up none of the mess pictured.
but this is what i do.
the things that are completely unnecessary are checked off of my list first.
i did not need to sort out my entire under-the-sink area, but i did.
i also did not need to refold all of my shorts, but that, i also did.
what i need to do is unpack from the beach.
and hang up the clothes that i hung up before i went to the beach.
but of course those things are placed on the back burner and done at the last minute.
i dont understand why i do these things.
but its in every aspect of my life.
from completing little projects due two weeks from that day before hard papers i have procrastinated on until the day before to cleaning, what i absolutely have to do, i do very last.
in a way im saving myself a few minutes from having to endure the one thing i dread doing.
i need to fix it.
but hey, lets face it, nothings going to change.
i might end up cleaning all of those clothes out of my floor since i slept sixteen hours last night.
and im not tired at all.
or maybe ill just lay in my bed and watch some more of season ten disk three.
we will see.
goodnight everyone.

when the good outweighs the bad.

attention: this may contain "t.m.i." so if you dont wanna know just scroll...

i had to wake up four hours earlier than i was planning to all because i had to get a cavity filled i didnt even know i had.
my ovaries started contracting. oh the joys of being a girl. 
my car went dead, again. im pretty sure no lie thats the fourteenth time.

i realized how hard my schedule is going to be next semester.
i have to study for a muscle test i have in less than 24 hours.

but even though all these things happened...

i had an awesome day at work. six hours seemed like it flew by and on top of that i only had to break up about five tiffs instead of triple that. oh, and i dont hate hearing my name today.
i got to fill up my giving envelope.
i expanded my knowledge about Genesis in bible study.
i have friends to jump me off so i didnt have to ask some random person in hardees to do it.
mom fixed chicken alfredo.
i realized that i made my schedule so that i have time to go to lunches and club at AG on monday. whooooo.

these are the days, i know God is real. things dont always go my way but then God reveals the all the good things that are prevalent. He answers prayers and works so that I dont always have to.

"rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: rejoice!"

-philippians 4:4

b.s.

probably shouldn't have done it.
but i did.
she told me not to.
but i didnt care.
we drove around forever.
and even went to linville road.
oh well.
probably wont call or text.
until that weird moment we are both thinking the same thing.
i guess we will wait until then.

migraine.

worst pain to wake up to at 530 a.m., 

especially if you have a quiz at 8, 

and it keeps you up for 45 minutes,

and neither ibuprofen nor an ice pack will help.   

then you realize that its not going away... 

until after you have driven 4.5 hours to the beach.

didnt know pain like that existed. 

the day in the life of the mckinneys.

so i have determined that my new workout buddy is my grandma, yeah i said it. this woman knows how to exercise. shes in such great shape and on top of that she wears my old jeans that i can no longer fit into. hello people that is pretty impressive for a woman who is like forty years older than me. every time i go over to her house she asks if i want to go to the "center" and work-out. never fails, every time. im going to load her in my car and she is going to live with me in my apartment at school so she can motivate me to get moving!
so today, my grandma, ashton, and i did exactly that. we loaded the gold van and went to the "center." i haven't exercised in forever and it felt good to sweat again. hopefully ill be sore tomorrow. and yes, ashton went and actually worked out too. hopefully it will continue into the school year. fingers crossed. after we worked out i went over to ashtons since at the current moment i am parentless until tuesday, so today i am a mckinney...

four-wheeler riding

 corn shucking

 ol' red

 feeding cows

 picking corn

 riding in the back of the pick-up with smelly ducks 

 releasing ducks

 imitating nanny

riding in the mule 

note: we also played corn-hole...and why yes, of course i won!

trip to charlotte.

ashton and i are currently in charlotte with evan and josh. and as usual it has been nothing less than eventful.

i will have a house with a view like this. 

levi literally did laps in the water with the frisbee he didn't let leave his mouth for two days.  

after the visit to the lake where ashton almost got a concussion by the "triple up" preformed by superman himself we took a trip to cookout, watched the the dilemma and played ping-pong at my future decor-ed house. this is where i have finally determined i suck miserably at ping-pong, probably never want me on your team. ever. side note: not only did ashton almost get knocked out, she received her second bloody nose and bit her tongue. blood was everywhere. i so wish i had my camera, i'm currently kicking myself.

this picture doesn't give it justice, it was a doosy.

we proceeded to go the the basketball courts after ashton and i had already taken showers (note: sweltering hot outside) and another injury happened. after trying to dunk, evan ripped his fingernail up...bloody mess.

 my best friend is a keeper

skill and sweat

needless to say, after that we went back to his house, took care of the injury, and took some much needed pictures, awkward ones at that. the self-timer option works magic...on the counter, in the microwave, on the microwave, and in the cabinents. classicccc.

the awkward one

day two continued all the mad fun ha and ashton and i went to concord mills and she actually bought something. like spent her money on a piece of clothing. yeah, it was like pulling teeth to get her to buy it but she did. evan was at work at this time and since my stupid phone doesn't receive text messages i didn't know what time we were supposed to come visit him just like the terrible friends we are. my fault completely. but when we came back to the house, instead of spending time with him, we watched him play a computer game. forever. no not really forever, but close enough, heaven forbid we stop the game to go to the pool. lol. the game was finally over and off to where the lifeguard worked we went and pool basketball was in order. evan against ashton and i, we beasted it. but we weren't there very long when thunder and lightning rolled in so we went back to the house and fixed dinner, chicken alfredo at that. yummm. but whats dinner without dessert? so coldstone was where it was at and of course being predictable me i got the waffle bowl of cake batter ice cream with reese and kit-kat. so good. we walked around a little bit in the cutest little shopping center while my ice crean digested and came back, baked cookies and got on chat roulette. warning: there were things on there i never. ever in my entire life wanna see again....evan can we say jenny cull? but we did meet RAQUEL, who we talked to for like an hour, most of which was communicated in a chinese voice. we learned a lot though, and if we were serious stalkers we could definitely find her. since she is...

-from ontario, canada 

-getting a soccer scholarship to play at jackson state

-freaking good at art

but all good things have to come to an end and we had to go home.

 thank you evan for being such a good host and muhh best friendddd (: 

biggest cup ive ever seen

gotta love him

future note: i'm probably going to move into evan's quaint little neighborhood. ashton and i are going to have a house on the lake. evan's mom will decorate my house. thank you and goodnight.