t swift.

i get to see her tomorrow.

sid, katie, and i leave at three. 
ive heard shes not very good live. 
whatever. 

i cant wait!

songs to get me in the mood...

-stay beautiful 

-last kiss

-teardrops on my guitar

-forever and always

-mine

-back to december

-tim mcgraw 

nice music choice.

sheltered. ...the epitome of lame scary movies.

you would think since its intended purpose is to be scary it would have more than one, yes one, scary part in it. i jumped during this part too. didn't even shrill-fully scream like i would if it would have been worth more than $1.25. the music was off too. i think it would have been more appropriate in a bunny movie. it did have some pretty humorous parts in it im not gonna lie. heres some quotes...

who-viller look-a-like man: "what do i do with this neanderthal?"

whoviller look-a-like:"excuse me if im a little edgy."

who-viller look-a-like: "boool shit"

sidney: "boool shittt"

jan: "the whole town is evacuated"

who-viller look-a-like: "well right now my bowls are evacuated."

oh and the short little strip tease while the onlookers watched casually was a good edition too. 

even though the movie sucked, i had a great time with sidney, katie, and tyler oberle. full name. haha. who by the was a wonderful host. he even made pretty delicious oatmeal raisin cookies. had some with a mini dr.pepper...i was set. 

tyler and i even had a mini guitar lesson. did you know that on the c chord you just strum five stings instead of all six. nice to know. huh? yep i think soooo. 

katies attempt at photography

i have a compulsion with making lists i have discovered. but i guess its not totally a bad thing but i wanted to share my list of a pretty productive day...

-woke up at 8:00 am: about the time sidney was leaving for work
-signed up for the student pirate club: something that should have been done ages ago 
-made a hair appointment: july 14 11:00am: yayayayay

im thinking this? maybe. any suggestions?

-cleaned the whole upstairs: tackling downstairs tomorrow
-ordered curtains for my apartment!!!
http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=80&startValue=1&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=20968889&parentid=A_DECORATE&sortProperties=+subCategoryPosition,+product.marketingPriority&navCount=70&navAction=jump&color=&pushId=A_DECORATE&popId=APARTMENT&prepushId=&selectedProductSize=
-cashed check
-worked: incident of the day...

me: "say you're sorry."

kid: "no."

me: "ok then we are gonna just sit here."

kid: crying and struggling. 

me: "do you wanna go into the baby room?"

kid: "no" along with screaming

me: "say sorry."

kid:"no."

me: alright we are going to the baby room.

kid: screaming

me: "are you ready to say sorry yet?"

kid: "no."

me: "say you're sorry."

kid: silence

me: "say it." 

kid: silence.

me: "ok, you're not gonna be able to play if you don't. say sorry."

kid: silence.

me: "say it, then you can go play."

kid:"...im sorry..." 

me: "FINALLY!"

check it (:

weather forecast for tonight: dark.

go to the lower cascades. 

have a picnic. 

go to wilmington.

sleep outside. 

go to roller coaster hill. 

visit the rock quarry. 

go to a movie in the old cinema. 

label all cds. 

go to the river and fish.

find the house. 

walk around downtown winston.  

get a haircut, along with a feather added. 

organize pictures. 

develop pictures. 

take more pictures. 

more to be added later. 

dream car.

this is it. nuff said. 

the adventures of thirdwheeling.

friday...what to do? what to do? i think hanging out with one of the besties doing absolutely nothing is appropriate. thrown in some smooth, hand waxy treatment, nail polish, "say yes to the dress," sweet tea brought by bunn and you have got yourself a party.

after about seven episodes of the big bliss edition we decided to go to sonic. let me note the first trip up 52. then we decided we would eat at the swings. note the second trip down 52. taking my $3.42 mozzarella sticks and their root beer and tots we all sat at the playground quickly noticing a fox. this was no ordinary fox though. it was a creeper fox, being all sly and stuff in the shadows then frantically scurrying about when out bags made noise. some would even say that it was a "crack fox" by the way it freaked out. to sum it up, sidney was scared to death and she thought she could scare it with a little "hoo ha" but that was no success.

it was now 11:00 and we were planning to meet the rest of the crew at the school to go to waffles for jasons birthday. note third trip up 52. we ended up going to "roller coaster hill" where jorge decided to accelerate down this road at an extremely fast speed. i of course was hesitant to go this freaking fast but ill have to admit it was pretty fun. so after that thrill ride was over, it was off the waffle house we went, of course sitting down as a group. now this is where sidney, bunn, and i (the third wheel)'s night turned hilarious. our waitress asked us what we wanted to eat and being that we had already ate explained that we were with just hanging out with the rest of our friends. well obviously that was not ok with her so she told us to go sit in the "waiting area" so her paying customers could sit there. a little side note here...there were 14 other seats where those other people could sit. we now know "how black people felt" and it was a definite "humbling experience." 

i wish you coulda seen us. freaking funny. to top things off while we sat in this "waiting area" not one of our friends took notice, except jorge. so we left. adios. note the fourth trip down 52. and thats how my friday night ended. 

holy moley. look at her. she got the boots, with the fur.

06.23.2011

 determining study spot at nana's house. 

 humerus. ulna. radius. ishium. ilium. pubis. carpals.

 peeing interrupted by an unexpected biker. 

pointing out my popularity with the p.mount citizens.  

17593 attempts at restaurants that close at ten.  

  wendy's chicken caesar wrap+ fries+ drink= $3.12.

 civic center picnic tables.  

 tallying up the list...

ashton: 15 and 3

morgan: 4

i kinda love us. 

wanna good read?

there are three things that never leave my body. one: a green bracelet i got in new york. a christmas present from sidney that i have worn without taking it off once. it will probably fall off before i take it off since the metal piece in the middle has suffered severe contortions throughout the past six months. two: an extra tricky-do for the just in case moments. and three: a black w.w.j.d. bracelet. 

please pardon the out of shower, ready for bed, getting ready to freeze in this ice box look. 

this week i have really began to question what jesus would actually do in every situation that has come up. i work at a daycare, that needless to say requires an extreme amount of patience. but i have to remind myself that i need to be "slow to speak, and slow to anger" (james 1:19) if i truly want to live like the man who died for my sins, i need to do exactly that. i dont think Jesus was very self absorbed either, in fact he was kinda the polar opposite. this my friends is something that needs work. so please pray for me ok? im kinda selfish sometimes, as bad as i wish i wasnt. 

the past year has probably been the hardest year of my life. having to go from what seemed to be perfect, to  being on the verge of depression, has been difficult. i talk about it all the time but nothing ever seems to help. i sometimes wonder if everything was worth it but then tonight i read james and the very first chapter slapped me in the face. 

"consider is a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. but endurance must do its complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing."

-james 1:2-4

we face trials to produce endurance of our faith so if this is the case, God, bring on the obstacle course. im going to be your long-time, forever companion. im going to be your ceaseless, fearful follower. rejoicing not only during the sunny times, but more so in the storms. im going to be a doer of your good works instead of just a proclaimer. i going to be completely in love with you, sound good?

ohhh and just an f.y.i. james is a pretty good book. it doesnt take a long time to read either, maybe fifteen minutes. you should check it out!

ps-i dont always have then right words to say, ever. those gaps with potential useful advice and words of wisdom are mostly filled with numerous i dont  knows but im but im working on it. i strive to be a person my best friend can constantly go to for Godly support instead of her having to completely rely on her friends from college. i cant say that im not a little bit ashamed of myself. 

prayer request: one of my friends had a dirt bike accident and he got sent to baptist with head injuries, keep him in your prayers. 

emotional annoyance.

hey you-
its been way to long.
i cant even remember when i heard your voice last.
it was probably the recording on your voicemail.
things feel kinda hopeless.
but maybe ill run into you one day.
kinda one of those random, awkward encounters.
that neither one of us expects.
where my face gets red and my stomach is in knots.
one of those best and worst feelings all at the same time.
it will be fun.
i hope you're doing alright.
and not the fake, "yeah im fine."
but i honestly hope you're happy.
and you're family is okay.
even taylor, jordan, elizabeth, and ethan.
tell them i said hello.
ya know, it's kinda hard for me.
not to call you or text you or message you.
and i don't know how to fix it.
i know it gets on your nerves.
i mean honestly who would want that.
but i'm working on it.
our songs still remind me of you.
i have to turn them occasionally because its too hard.
and as much as i hate that i do it,
i still look for your car at your house.
i can't help but to glance.
i sometimes even go out  of my way to go past your mom's house.
am i crazy?
it's definitely a possibility.
oh well.
i don't wish this on anyone. 
my heart hurts for you,
on repeat.
i breakdown sometimes.
and question God's plan.
but i know things will work out the way they are supposed to.
i miss us though.
i miss you.
i miss everything.
and guess what...

heathcliff o'mally.

i just got back from the beach two days ago so the beach pictures will be up soon. 

today was another class day...oh joy the wonderful 8309238 types of tissues. the daycare today was a little more than i could handle. im pretty sure i wanted to bless some kids out or hit them. but of course i refrained. i just don't understand how some kids can be literally so mean and rude but not think twice about it. im kinda dumbfounded. oh and then ask me to play volleyball with them but three seconds before told the other teacher that i was "so annoying." ha. whatever. 

i got a guitar that i know nothing about, except maybe possibly a c chord. thats about it. its kinda sad. 

this has been me the past seven nights....cough cough cough cough (blow nose) cough cough (try to clear throat) cough cough cough (give up for a minute) repeat. mucous is literally STUCK in my throat. and oh heres a little fact...mucous doesn't help the feeling of your throat after you throw up. the acid feeling just kinda sits there no matter how much you try to make it go away. 

furthering my health status. i found out the other day that i have had mono the past month. that is why i have been so dang tired. so glad i finally got that figured out. 

going along with this random post is one of THE funniest videos i have ever watched...it makes my day everytime! (side note: heathcliff o'mally is my god son, he is a turtle) 

delirious state of mind.

10:00 PM--the studying for anatomy begins.
deliriousness sets in
3:00 AM--the studying ends...for now.
6:00 AM-- good morning, not.

7:00 AM--stopped studying.
8:00 AM-- test.
9:00 AM--realized that i completely overstudied.
later found out ashton and i beasted it. 93. whooooo. 
9:30 AM--looked at tissues.
11:00 AM--organized files. a lot of them.
12:30 PM--got money, got paid.
1:30 PM--naptime.
3:00 PM--work.
6:00 PM--got money got paid.
6:15 PM--phone calls begin totally up to approximately 123 minutes.
6:16 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (11 minutes)
6:28 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (28 minutes)

6:58 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (5 minutes)

7:03 PM-- call from evan "superman" arthur (7 minutes)

7:10 PM-- call from evan "superman" arthur (30 minutes)

7:42 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (13 minutes)

8:54 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (2 minutes)

9:14 PM--call from evan "superman" arthur (12 minutes)

9:29 PM-- call from evan "superman" arthur (15 minutes) 

10:00 PM--the sporadic conversations with evan end. 

i kinda think this kid is obsessed with me. ha. 


so get this...im making my dad a cd for his long drive to ny in the morning and just take a listen to the songs he put on his wish list. feel free to hit the pause button whenever you please.

i kinda love him a lot though. 

nanny.

i decided to do separate posts for yesterday because for one they are all rather random and two because theres this one lady that deserves to be recognized by herself. 

although getting up hay with the farmer man was good and all, there was a downside of the day. i had to go to a viewing. experiencing the death of someone you have grown up knowing sometimes seems unreal. you might have known that it was coming but that doesn't make it easier to cope with, and this was definitely the case for yesterday. nanny is what we all called her for as long as i remember and she was one of the funniest, most loving people i have ever met. she came to all of our softball games from the time we could hold a bat to the last game in raleigh our senior year. she bribed us with money to get us to hit a home run and believed in us, even if we didn't ourselves. she had a way of de-stressing most every situation and she meant the world to everyone around her. needless to say she was without a doubt beautiful. i love you nanny from the bottom of my heart. you will be greatly missed! 

it's hay season.

yesterday this was my day.