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there are three things that never leave my body. one: a green bracelet i got in new york. a christmas present from sidney that i have worn without taking it off once. it will probably fall off before i take it off since the metal piece in the middle has suffered severe contortions throughout the past six months. two: an extra tricky-do for the just in case moments. and three: a black w.w.j.d. bracelet. 

please pardon the out of shower, ready for bed, getting ready to freeze in this ice box look. 

this week i have really began to question what jesus would actually do in every situation that has come up. i work at a daycare, that needless to say requires an extreme amount of patience. but i have to remind myself that i need to be "slow to speak, and slow to anger" (james 1:19) if i truly want to live like the man who died for my sins, i need to do exactly that. i dont think Jesus was very self absorbed either, in fact he was kinda the polar opposite. this my friends is something that needs work. so please pray for me ok? im kinda selfish sometimes, as bad as i wish i wasnt. 

the past year has probably been the hardest year of my life. having to go from what seemed to be perfect, to  being on the verge of depression, has been difficult. i talk about it all the time but nothing ever seems to help. i sometimes wonder if everything was worth it but then tonight i read james and the very first chapter slapped me in the face. 

"consider is a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. but endurance must do its complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing."

-james 1:2-4

we face trials to produce endurance of our faith so if this is the case, God, bring on the obstacle course. im going to be your long-time, forever companion. im going to be your ceaseless, fearful follower. rejoicing not only during the sunny times, but more so in the storms. im going to be a doer of your good works instead of just a proclaimer. i going to be completely in love with you, sound good?

ohhh and just an f.y.i. james is a pretty good book. it doesnt take a long time to read either, maybe fifteen minutes. you should check it out!

ps-i dont always have then right words to say, ever. those gaps with potential useful advice and words of wisdom are mostly filled with numerous i dont  knows but im but im working on it. i strive to be a person my best friend can constantly go to for Godly support instead of her having to completely rely on her friends from college. i cant say that im not a little bit ashamed of myself. 

prayer request: one of my friends had a dirt bike accident and he got sent to baptist with head injuries, keep him in your prayers.